Monday, August 9, 2010

My praise is my Weapon!

So in a few hours I'm going to meet up with my friend and escort to Paris, Marguerite. I've got somethings to research and look up before I meet up with her. I think I've been a lil slack errrrr more confused than slack about going to France. Like, when should I go? How? Through grants or out of pocket? How long will I be there? Some of the questions I have the answers but I just wanted be sure I was listening to my heart.
I could ramble all day about France, but I won't. At some point all caution might be thrown to the wind and I'll be over there in that far off but not too distant land, doing something new!
I've realized recently that I have many powers (and so do you), and that I don't have to fit myself into any box. I talked to my Dad yesterday and realized that I was my artistic training thus far has been really balanced: at BSA I the classical, fundamentals. At SVA I honed my technical painting/drawing kills and became acquainted with industry standards and trends, and the commercial art world. At SFAI, which times seemed like a total mind fuck, gave me all the conceptual wealth I really always wanted since I was a little girl, but never really knew I wanted. And the quiet little child started singing and playing the guitar!!! Can you believe it?!!

So now I've got a whole artillery. I looked up the word "artillery" (it's cool that it begins with "art") and this was the definition:
mounted projectile-firing guns or missile launchers, mobile or stationary, light or heavy, as distinguished from small arms.
So that means I've got big guns now!! And what an awful shame to have a whole artillery and not use it.....properly.

When you have so much it's hard to know how to direct your weapon(s). Lol. It is. I have sooooooooooo many mediums I'm capable of using and I'm passionate about that it's hard to choose just one and focus on it. I feel now there's a calling to be free. Just be it all, boldly.
Man, I've got a ton of words to even put in this post, but I've got to go meet Marguerite soon. That's one, of many, steps in the right direction.

I didn't want to leave without giving total thanks to the one truly responsible for any greatness that I do and could ever Possess. Thanks God! Thanks Jesus. You made me and gave me courage to be uniquely who I am and that's a whooooooole lot. I hope I do everything you intend for me to. Let your work be done in me through to completion.
There's a song that says something like " No matter who I am or what I do, I must praise." Not praise in a box, but really be free, boldly uniquely you.

Here's that song, and below it someone who I think really exemplifies what I mean in a slightly more alternative way. You've gotta listen to words. I think she's partially referring to an internal war. Lol I'm saying this for myself (cause I sure need it, and I know I talk a lot about what I'm gonna do, sometimes without much follow through) but hopefully you take something from it.

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